Summary: Songwriter Andrew uses drugs to quiet his uncertainties about his ongoing relationship with his twin brother, Ben. Ben, on the other hand, feels no guilt or shame and only wants to be able to love Andrew openly, without all of the pretense. Time and again, Andrew gives in to his desires for Ben, only to lose himself in the alcohol and drugs once more. No matter how hard Ben tries to convince him, Andrew can’t seem to reconcile his mind and his heart. Finally, disheartened by Andrew’s repeated empty promises, Ben begins to pull away, forcing Andrew to choose between letting go and finally finding the strength to stop running.
Review: Dancing on a knife’s edge, so easy to cut and feel the pain.
Intensity and a true sense of fraternal connection between Ben and Andrew make this a solid read. The story has conflict, most of it internal as Andrew comes to grips with his feelings for Ben. While Andrew is a train wreck, Ben is near perfect and practically a Mary Sue.
I liked the mess Andrew made of himself as he battles. Ugly, imperfect and wallowing in misery–it was both horrible to watch and fascinating. Do I feel Ben deserves better? Maybe. But at the end of the day, we’re all willing to put up with stuff to get what we want. And Ben wants Andrew.
Recommended read for twincest devotees.
The tie that had bound them, always tenuous and fragile, snapping in that void of silence and nothing, and Andrew staggered under its weight.