Author: Lynn Kelling
Publisher: Fantastic Fiction
Summary: Kerry Sanderson’s life is falling apart. He’s crushing himself to fit into the boxes others have put him in: dutiful son, good boyfriend, real man. But even the small rebellions he’s fought for himself—moving into a sketchy part of town and becoming an exotic dancer—aren’t giving him the freedom he needs. Ewyn Garrity, a security guard at the gay club where Kerry dances, has found himself in protecting others. Everyone thinks he’s straight, but Ewyn doesn’t fit into simple boxes, either. When he meets Kerry, he makes a not completely innocent offer of company after work.
Ewyn and Kerry hit it off, each finding something he desperately needs in the other. But when Kerry is forced to confront the pain and self-doubt that keep him crushed in his boxes, he’s afraid that no one, not even Ewyn, will be able to love who he is when he finally, truly becomes Kerry
To sum this story up in a word, it would have to be “breathtaking”. No other word seems to fit the wide-eyed wonder that I felt learning about Kerry – someone who identifies as genderqueer, a concept that until now was completely foreign to me.
In moving through the story, I felt very off balance trying to learn the nuances to Kerry’s world. The sheer pain and suffering it must have entailed was mind boggling both in the actual events revealed in the story as well as what my imagination conjured up outside of that. But then along came Ewyn, who was perfect in every way for Kerry. They both, in fact, had something to give that the other one desperately needed. Everyone deserves to find their Ewyn – someone who loves unconditionally from the inside out and will be supportive through thick and thin. I adored these two together!
This is one of the best books I’ve read about self-discovery and learning to become the person you were meant to be. I won’t go into any other spoilery details, because honestly, the discovery as you read along this journey is the best part.
Stunning and highly recommended!!!