Author: Posy Roberts
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Genre: MM Holiday
Summary: For years, Ethan and Toby have said they’ll never marry, despite Ethan’s secret wishes. So leaving sunny California for snowy Minnesota to witness his sister’s vow renewal is not how he wants to spend his Christmas Eve. It’s the second time she’ll say “I do” in less than a year, when Ethan saying those words to Toby even once is hopeless.
In the run-up to the ceremony, Toby seems to avoid Ethan, and doubts grow in his absence. Ethan can’t help noticing Toby spends more time with Ethan’s family than with him. Little does Ethan know, Toby has desires of his own. But if Toby doesn’t find a way to reveal them, Ethan could leave for home without him.
Review: Told in first person POV by Ethan, this is the story of Ethan and Toby, an established couple, in love and happy. Aren’t they? They have always said they would never marry, even though really Ethan wants to and is afraid to say anything to Toby. The second ceremony for his sister’s marriage is taking a toll on Ethan. He wants to be happy for her, and he is, but it just reinforces what he will never have. He tries to deny it, “We don’t need anything more to prove to the world we love each other.” He makes sure to cross his fingers or legs to ward off bad luck over the lie he tells.
Add in that Toby forced him to take this time off to be with the family but then the family leaves Ethan alone more often than not and he’s about had it. He is getting irritated with everything, “…at the very sound of the three dogs’ nails clicking on the hardwood floor above me and Gigi talking nonstop about her stupid, fake wedding.” I actually was right there with him on the dogs’ nails, it makes me crazy. I felt heartsick for him about the wedding, because despite his protestations, he wants that.
He’s now blaming himself “…by essentially pushing Toby away with my overly dedicated work ethic.” He knows Toby is lying to him and he just wants to say screw it and fly back home, where he won’t feel so alone and ignored. He is a good brother, however, and stays. He is forced to face the fact that he and Toby may be on opposite poles about this.
I liked this whole story. It’s sweet and romantic, showing what lengths someone will go to show you how much you are loved. Ethan’s family is what we should all have and the ending is perfect.